My Subconscious Delights in Taunting Me

You are slave to my nocturnal whims!

Most experienced lucid dreamers will tell you that in order to make your sleeping mind clue into the fact you’re dreaming, you need to do regular “reality checks.”

But what do you do when your sleeping mind uses your reality check to seriously mess with your head?

That’s what happened to me last night…

As usual, before I went to bed I reminded myself to check for my wedding ring while I was dreaming. Since I never take the ring off, if I saw myself without it I figured it would be a sure sign I wasn’t in Kansas anymore.

Well, it seems like my brain enjoys playing tricks on me.

Last night I had a number of long detailed dreams I won’t get into here, but right in the middle of one I actually did it: I remembered to look down at my left hand and check for my wedding ring.

The ring was there, all right… But it was missing its diamond. The emeralds on either side of the empty diamond setting had vanished, too.

I shrieked with terror, prompting the woman I was with to drop to her knees and look for the missing gems.

To my horror, I realized what had happened: A short while before that, I had stuck both hands into a beaker of cleaning fluid after being assured it was safe by the smarmy salesman who was demonstrating the cleaner to a crowd of onlookers.

Safe for skin perhaps… Not so much for reality check symbols.

When I held my hands face up to examine the underside of the rings, I screamed again — the white gold band of my wedding ring was crumbling before my eyes.

The woman searching for my gems managed to find the diamond but not the emeralds.

“Here,” she said, looking deep into my eyes as she pressed the gem into my hand and closed my fingers over top of it. “You must keep this safe.”

So what did I do? I put it back in the loose and crumbling setting of the ring. “That’s where I’ll keep you,” I thought.

In recollection, probably not the safest of places.

Now, I ask you: What is the significance of this dream? Was it a sign that the barrier preventing me from achieving regular lucid dreaming is about to crumble like the ring on my finger?

… Or was my own subconscious mind taunting me by shoving a dream-twisted version of my reality check symbol in my face and laughing at my inability to recognize it for what it was?

(My husband says he thinks it’s a sign that our relationship is crumbling. Excuse me while I go smack him upside the head…)

2 Comments

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  By Michael Beloved, August 7, 2009 @ 4:46 am

  Significance is that you are insecure about the diamond, in the sense that you have a subconscious fear about losing it. The subconscious mind just played that out.

  To get rid of the insecurity you would haveto get rid of it or put it into a bank vault.

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  By lucid dream girl, August 7, 2009 @ 8:34 pm

  But don’t you think it’s more than a coincidence that I had a dream about my ring after spending a week trying to mentally train myself to have a dream about a ring?

  Sure, I think my subconscious is trying to tell me something — but I think it has more to do with my ongoing effort to initiate a lucid dream than it does with any insecurity I have about losing my ring.

  But thanks for your comment, Michael. Much appreciated! Hope you come back again sometime.

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